Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Ang Kinabuhi Dito (The lifestyle here) - Pictures
Monday, September 26, 2011
Onward and Upward!!
I'm a pretty even-keel sort of guy, with a fairly predictable temperament. Usually. In this setting though, I've found that most days are a mix of two extremes. I go from angry days, when every slow jeepney and irrelevant conversation drives me crazy, I scoff at the dirty dogs running everywhere, and I end up scrutinizing everything from the size of the mosquitoes, (which are extremely well-fed) to the backyard trash heaps with unsorted recyclables. The other days are the sublime days, where I'm in the hippy-dippy mood of seeing the inherent worth in every little pebble, the wonderful smiles on faces, the place is infallible, rugged mountain vistas and glassy aquamarine waters are a backdrop to my, honestly, naïve outlook on things. The appropriate temperament, however, is no-doubt somewhere in between, where I should be able to simultaneously see the charm of this place, the people and natural features while remaining mindful of the faults that exist amongst the corruption, environmental shortcomings, and neglect of so many promising children.
As I talk to new volunteers who are in the first throes of their service, as well as friends who live here in this community, two questions frequent the dialogue at this point when I am transitioning out of the Philippines. The first question is, "What do you miss about home that you will have to do upon your return?" and the second, "What will you miss about this place when you have left?"
For the first question, I've settled on family, friends, public lands and the crunch of fall leaves under foot as the things that immediately come to mind when I think of what I most look forward to going back to. Ofcourse, there are also material things like public water fountains (with water I can trust), steaks at Outback, the smell of a gym, chlorinated water in a warm swimming pool, watching my breath accumulate into small clouds as I run early on a fall morning. The autonomy of traveling alone, the feel of new clothes, a warm shower, my own couch, a firm mattress, sweet tea and a thick slice of red tomato on good toast with cheddar cheese.
For the second question, I'd have to say I'll miss the friendliness of all the neighbors, saying hello to everyone here on balmy mornings and blustery afternoons, the intimate rides to town on cool mornings, and riding back from town in the evenings, hitched to the back of a jeep, looking up at a starry evening sky, the last flecks of a pink sunset outlining the western mountains and the prickly coconut leaves in the foreground, the smell of cooking fires coming from little roadside nipa huts. I'll miss being part of a barcada with the fishermen, sitting around with a glass of coconut wine listening to their chatter of fishing and women, all in a little-known foreign tongue that I'll never hear again, much less have any use for speaking, except under my breath when not wishing to be understood.
We all probably have a problem with being satisfied, especially us westerners. We're either thinking of a way to get away from our present condition, or longingly singing of the Green Green Grass of Home. We forget about the good things about where we are, and forgetfully long for what we don't have, with no recollection for the associated hardships. A lot of people have a problem finding satisfaction, myself totally included. It's probably what drives us to be so successful, always upward and onward to the next best thing, without much of a respite to pause and observe all the blessings of the present. Exploration of the new world and manifest destiny and space exploration probably all exhibit some of this lack of satisfaction with the status quo, never accepting that the present is the ultimate existence in Western Culture. Well, what if the present is the best it will be? Would that really be so bad? How would we live differently? Imagine all the anxiety that would subside if we didn't have some itching desire to be bigger and better.
Everything in moderation as the maxim goes. How 'bout having satisfaction enough to be pleased with a good situation, without the ambition that excessively drives us to work, work, work, while maintaining enough innovation and drive to rectify a situation if in dire need of hard work. I get really irritated on my angry days walking around wondering how my neighbors can continue to live in filth and watch as their children feign attending school. I can't believe how anyone could be satisfied with a situation like that. On the flip side, I watch news from home and people with healthy families and beautiful homes jump to their death when the stock market takes a dive. Why can't they just be satisfied with a great existence and shrug off a bad day on the S&P? Everything in moderation, including satisfaction.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
Pictures from the start of rainy season.
Friday, September 23, 2011
The last return
I liken the cultural divide between Manila and my site in Babatngon, Leyte to the cultural divide that you would see between Millboro, Virginia, and New York City, New York. (For those who haven't been to Millboro, it's basically in the middle of forest, at the convergence of a couple roads that most people don't take unless they live, hunt, or fish there.) So, given the cultural divide, you usually need to take a day or so at site upon return from business in Manila resting, not interacting too much with folks, easing back into the swing of things. I think most of the volunteers would agree that this is a pretty good attack plan for re-acclimating. However, Thursday, my first day back from the trip to the city, I was just sitting around, French press with sub-par coffee in one hand, water filter in the other, when Mana Bea came up from downstairs and told me that I would be eating lunch with her family today. I tried for some clarification on the event but didn't get very far, and got a rough idea of where I was supposed to go at 11:45. As instructed, I got cleaned up and rode my bike up to the venue at 11:45 as promised. When I got there, I saw a huge banner mounted on bamboo poles above a big spread of local food that said, "Happy 75th Birthday, Mana Ester." I paid respects to the birthday girl herself then, dressed in bright colors, friendly, with reddened face, proof she had already been sipping on the tuba, as she came out of the house, confused as to why I was at her house (the family failed to tell her that they had invited me.) She definitely hadn't expected me to come, especially since we don't really know each other at all, but covered well, and led me by the forearm over to a table and put a couple beers in front of me, told me to, basically, stay put. I looked around and found myself flanked on both sides, in front, and behind by a bunch of old women, the cohort you would expect at the birthday for a 75-year-old Filipino lady.
I ate the birthday food, went and skipped flattened coral stones across the glassy smooth ocean with kids, and then quietly got on my bike and slipped out, those warm sweaty beers still full, waiting for me to drink them.
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Be Like Water
This week, I've thought a lot about what this phrase means to me, and why I keep hearing it in various places, spoken by various people, for different reasons. Sometimes it is said with sage-like wisdom when hardships arise, sometimes in jest, sometimes merely in passing, but always with some meaning.
Water has the ability to create a devastating deluge or a feeble flowing finger, a mighty wall of power in the ocean or an elegant trickle at a mountain spring. To be like water is to always have direction, to react to situations and hardships accordingly, to glean silt or sand or leaves or debris from every billabong turn in the stream, but always having the ability to leave it behind, given time, lots of time. Water encounters obstacles, and either rises slowly, pooling to a crest to surmount or push that obstacle, or, when implacable, unmoving, water will always find a way around, flitting through cracks and crevices, filling every void with its satisfying coolness before moving on down the stream, clear of the obstacle. When boulders, or cobbles, or gravel doesn't comprise the streambed, water will seep, seep through the myriad of tiny tunnels between grains of sand, still traveling to its destination, always in the path of harmony, towards the freedom of a wide river, towards that immutable oneness of open waters, calm, and cleanliness. When, due to carelessness, water is polluted by someone passing, tossing garbage or soot, the stream will carry that burden, discolored, devoid of life for some time, but in the end, the entire stream will bear the burden of the waste, diluting the pain and carelessness until irrelevant and forgotten. If ever there is a rupture in a streambed, if dams are erected or rains pour too much to be satisfied by a winding channel, water cuts a new path, decisively straightening its course, the earthen streambed walls and grasses are uprooted with the strength of a bulldozer, plumes of topsoil and sediment cloud the clean riffles, but in the end, after time, the clay will settle, leaves filter out, grass will re-root, and a new streambed of bedrock and cobbles will form.
After thinking about these qualities of our lifeblood, I find the phrase more apt than ever. Just Be Like Water.
Thursday, September 15, 2011
Squeaky Wheels
The Peace Corps encourages volunteers to look objectively at their adopted communities, look for assets and deficits, figure out what's needed, and make it happen in one way or another. Whether or not we're experts and know exactly what we're doing, part of our mission is to look around and make whatever place we end up in, better, at least in terms of socioeconomic development. My wife, Selena, took a decrepit library at the local school, got new books, good books, found good people to work with, talked and talked and talked with them about seemingly basic ideas, and turned it around. I looked at a declining environmental situation around the coastal community, and got a grant for a sustainable aquaculture project to help and sustain a struggling marine fishery. We did cleanups and camps and training events to get communities galvanized as well. There are probably many other things that could have been done, and maybe our projects could have been implemented better, in more 'sustainable' ways. However, the point is, that Peace Corps encourages its volunteers to be constant observers, critical of community situations, looking for ways to improve, with or without the specific skills that are necessary to push the improvement through.
As my counterparts and I return home from this life-changing experience, I've been thinking about how this will translate into our lives in California or Alaska or Pennsylvania or Virginia or North Carolina communities. I think we're going to be really annoying. Okay, fair enough, I'll speak for myself. I'm going to be really annoying, trying to organize projects and cleanups and gatherings and the like. I've already got this idea to do a stream cleanup on Dry River, the river where I used to fish and pick raspberries and wade my feet on hot summer afternoons and almost drown during maiden launches of my poorly conceived raft ideas. I wonder why I never thought to do a cleanup before? Because the Peace Corps did it. It has made me this hyper community development person, and I don't necessarily think it's such a great thing. If I were on the Dayton, Virginia Town Council, I wouldn't look forward to me coming back and going to meetings with Perot-style diagrams of my river cleanup ideas, but I think that might just be in my future. Anyways, that's what I was thinking about today.